Wake Up Call

My last post was about my DR visits. I was hoping to get to the bottom of why I feel so crappy and why losing weight seems to be so hard for me. I'm not looking for an easy way out but I just feel like something is off. It has been about 4 or 5 years since I had blood work done and when I went to the Dr last year to get a refill on my anti-depressants she wanted to check my thyroid but we had no money for me to do that.

So I tried all last week to get some results of my blood work. I got bits and pieces but still need more info. So my sugar was good, my thyroid came back good, my cholesterol was good. They said my prolactin was high and the wanted me to do an MRI and there was a mention I thought of getting referred to an endocrinologist. I do not believe that my thyroid is normal since I have had low thyroid before and I have all the symptoms of low thyroid. I realized to this past week that I was having a reaction to caffeine not blood sugar attacks as I thought. I still question how one single blood test can show how my sugar is. Whatever the results it is time to get this weight off and get healthy. I'm tired of feeling crappy and looking crappy.

So the second wake up call I got was at the dentist yesterday and this brought me to tears so I guess this was really the bottom, the wake up call. I have not gone to the dentist for about 5 or 6 years because we have not had insurance, and honestly I have not been great with the teeth. Should of flossed regularly like they say to. I found out I have periodontal disease and I already have some bone loss. I also possible need two caps. The thing with your health is you can reverse things but with the teeth you can't. SUCKS! But I guess I can stop it from not getting worse. I was crying because I was so angry at myself for letting my health go the way I have. Not for a few years but but for about 14 years. 14 years wasted in not being healthy and being able to live life to the fullest because being FAT got in the way. Physically I have/had no energy and I lost all my confidence I had in myself. I have felt that people don't see me and all they see is my weight. I have felt very judged because of my weight. Whether it is true or not that is how I felt/feel.

Today as I write this I am not in the best of spirits. I have to just pull it together and make this happen.